|Audrey, Mary, Me After the Race|
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Monday, May 14, 2012
So five and half years ago I was 19 years old and had just moved back into my Dad's house after living in an apartment in downtown Chicago and going to Columbia College Chicago. College was fun, the city amazing, but the school's program was just not for me, and HELLA expensive. So I moved back home and went back to my high school job, working at the local K-Mart. And that's where it ALL changed.
Retail always has a high turnover ratio on employees, because really, besides high school kids, who the hell wants to work retail? I know I didn't, but I was also DEAD broke and needed to do something, ANYTHING. So back to hell I went.
And that's where I found him. Yes, I found HIM. He was clueless. Lost in his own world, still hurting over a cheating ex that had left him badly scarred.
Yeah, he still smoked cigarettes back then. I still smoked back then. And that's where I knew I had my in. I started going out on smoke breaks around the same time as him, and there were really only so many places we were allowed to go smoke, so he had no other option but to sit and talk to me. LOL I mean, he could have gone to his car, but really, I was the better option.
But like I said, the man is clueless. I probably "followed" him around K-mart for months. Nothing too obvious. My really good friend Brian was still working there at the time, and Ben and Brian were usually the "go-to" guys for carry outs, fixing things, and basically anything we needed a man for. So I called on the two of them a lot to do carry outs on furniture.
Any time I had a few seconds downtime, which is a lot at night during the week, I'd find myself over talking to Brian... and guess who was usually with him? Yeah, you guessed it. Ben was usually in the middle of a project with Brian and I was always interrupting. Retail is BORING, okay?! And if you had THAT (points up) walking around, you'd be interrupting TOO!
Okay, so after maybe 2 months of "following" him around K-mart, I gave up. I'm not the type of girl to "throw" herself at a guy, and I had thought that's what I'd been doing for the last two months. (Not really, but I'd be obvious enough). I'm also not a girl to make the first move and ask a guy out. Yeah, I'm a chicken shit.
So I said FUCK IT. If he's not interested, that's HIS fault, not mine.
2 Weeks later, guess who walked in on a Saturday when he wasn't scheduled? A day I had been sweating my ass AND make up off, where I looked absolutely completely and utterly like ASS!? Yeah, that's when he decides too man up and get off his ass and ask me out.
Now 5 & 1/2 years later, he choose the worst timing AGAIN to ask another important question.
On Saturday morning 5/12, when I first woke up, Ben holds me and says, "You make me so happy. Marry me." (Cue the Squee!!)
But I had just woke up, my hair was sticking up ALL over the place. I was hot and sweating because he shut my FRICKIN fan off. I was all pissy from the cat fucking with my sleep and being hot, that it REALLY took a few minutes for it to register what he said. I was like, "Whhhaaaa?"
He just grinned and said it again. "Marry me." No asking. Just demanding that I marry him.
Of course I said yes, but after I did, I looked at him and was like, "There's no ring."
LMAO! He had been so flustered about asking me, he left the ring hidden in the closet!! He had to stop everything to find the ring before he could put it on my finger!! LOL Poor guy!
I actually picked it out. Like I said, he's clueless. So back in February, we had bought it. He had kept it hidden from me for MONTHS! I knew the engagement was coming. We'd always talked about it. And then once we bought it, I was dying for it.
But he waited so frickin long I had forgotten ALL about it! I seriously wondered if he was ever gonna ask me and if he'd maybe changed his mind! But no, he just dragged his feet AS USUAL! :-)
Here's another view.
The ring is REALLY hard to photograph. I seriously took about 50 shots just to get these 3 "good" shots. But my favorite part of the ring is this little heart detail on both sides. Inside the heart, there is another diamond!!
So yeah, we're finally engaged! One of my uncle's even said, "I thought they've been engaged." Yeah, haha JERKS.
We spent mother's day showing off the goods and answering millions of questions! All too be expected though! And it was a really good time! So now I've got a wedding to plan in the next year and half. I'm thinking late summer/early fall next year!! Can't wait!!
Monday, April 2, 2012
But I guess while I was away on vacation, one of my friends brought in a political cartoon of Obama. I never saw the cartoon, don't know what was on it exactly, but from what I hear is, the cartoon had Obama addressing a preschool class and saying something like: "okay 50% of the class was napping, why don't we have the napper's do some work now." Remember, I never saw this cartoon and have only heard what people have said.
Okay, so S brings in this cartoon to show our friend T. They have a laugh about it and S says she wants to leave it on our Floor Manager's desk because she could appreciate the humor. T laughs and says, "Nooo... put it on the bulletin board so when K comes up from downstairs, she see's it."
So both woman laugh again, because K is a 32 old woman that ALWAYS sleeps at her desk. On the clock, will sit straight up like she's working, close her eyes and sleep. She's been busted who knows how many times by everyone in the department. So S and T think the cartoon is hilarious because its poking fun at K. Honestly, I would have laughed too because this woman does always sleep, but she'll be the first person to tattle tale on you and throw you under the bus. No one, not one single person has ever turned her in for sleeping because we're not tattle tales.
Okay, that being said. You need to understand that K is black. Now don't get me wrong, I don't have any issues with black people. I DO have issues with lazy people in general though. And to me, K is lazy because she sleeps on the job. But K is a person that always feels that because she is black, people don't like her. When really people know her personality and how fake and back stabbing she is. THAT is why people don't like her. I've had her rat me out INSTANTLY because I took the wrong tray of mail. So, she doesn't seem to understand that people just don't like HER.
But the problem now is, K has gone to HR to report this. From what I'm told, because I was in my own little world today and didn't see anything, today people were brought into HR individually for a "Fact Finding Meeting". Now mind you, this is something that occurred on March 23rd. Today is April 2nd. Why is this being addressed over a week later?
So T calls me after work today to tell me everything I had missed while I was in my own little world today. Apparently K is trying to make this cartoon out to being offensive and racial. This is the part that really makes me mad. Racial? I mean REALLY?! It has NOTHING to do with race. Yes Obama is black. Who cares? The cartoon was only talking about the nappers, my friends were only interested in the napping because its FUNNY. K sleeps at her desk every. single. day. Of course we're all gonna laugh at that cartoon. Because it fits our situation and brightens our day a little.
But for this bitch to bring it around to racism? And taking it as far as HR to try and get people in trouble with their jobs? Am I being over dramatic here? Do I just not see her reasoning? I honestly feel like she just trying to get these two in trouble because she doesn't like them. I really don't see how it can be offensive. I guess if you don't like it, don't fucking sleep on the job!
Sorry...I ranted a little.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
So last night was my first class and the night started off as to be expected. I was a nervous wreck and couldn’t find anything. Every time I turned around to look for something Ben was under foot and I was constantly running into him. That drives me BEYOND nuts, so I start to get cranky and snippy. But he finally helps me find everything and I get out the door. Had to make 4 stupid boys (brother’s friends) move their cars out of the driveway so I could get out. (long driveway). And then I sat in rush hour traffic for a half hour on the way to campus.
I get to the school a half hour early and sit back in my car, content to read and chat on twitter. At 6:08 I head inside (class starts at 6:30) to try and find the room before hand. Well as I’m walking around, I realize none of the classroom numbers go up to 207. Ummm yeaaaah, nooo. There was no such number. So I go ask at the front desk and find out I’m at the wrong campus! The “correct” Naperville campus is located 5 miles away in the middle of rush hour, and a place I’ve never been before or knew existed. I could have sworn I was at the right place.
So with the address plugged in my GPS on my phone, I head back to the car and check the time: 6:19. I officially have 11 minutes to get five miles. Sounds totally possible and usually would be if it wasn’t rush hour in Naperville. (Largest suburb of Chicago, tons of yuppies who can’t drive). But thanks to the nice lady I was able to take a back way with very little traffic and raced against the clock to get to class on time.
I finally roll into class at 6:29 and sit down. 6:30 on the dot, the teacher stands up and I will not stop smiling for the next 3 hours. Yes. My teacher, Dr. William Dezoma was wearing an 1890’s 3 piece suit, complete with pocket watch on a chain and the handle-bar mustache that he would frequently twist around his fingers. There were even suspenders underneath the vest. It was EPIC and I enjoyed it very much!
He has a doctorate in literature and is one of the world’s top experts in Pirate Literature. Yes. Pirate Literature. There was an intense lengthy discussion on Pirates of the Caribbean to follow. I hope next week I can get a picture of him!
I can’t even express thoroughly how much this man had me hooked as soon as he started speaking. He was such a character that you couldn’t make this shit up if you tried. He was bouncing around the room, very animatedly, standing on desks and jumping off. He captured my attention and held it for 3 hours straight.
His views on analyzing stories go far beyond the page and into our daily lives. Everyone you meet is their own fictional character with their own story. But not only do they have their own story, their stories have stories. What he was saying, was the story is always changing and evolving, it just depends on how you analyze it. The class is 80% discussion and 20% papers, midterms, finals.
Long story short, I had a blast at my first class and I’m really looking forward to going back. I’m really happy I decided to go back to school!
Homework for next week:
Read 2 short stories:
Sony's Blues By James Baldwin
Young Goodman Brown By Nathaniel Hawthorne
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Tomorrow is my first day going back to school. To say I’m nervous is an understatement. I get all sorts of twisted around when I think of sitting in a class room full of people I don’t know and possibly having to introduce myself and talk about me. I can write about me no problem. Talk to a group of unknowns? EEK! But I’m determined to finish school this time with my degree. After trying for a couple years now to get a basic associates degree, I’m kicking my ass into gear and WILL finish this time.
My little brother just graduated Auto School. So if he can graduate college, I know I can! Or that’s what I’m telling myself anyways. This time around it should be easier. Last time around I was working full time, going to school full time, and trying to make rent and have a social life. The boyfriend and I had just moved in together and were living almost 45 minutes away from school. Things were going pretty good, I was making it work though I was stressed, it wasn’t too bad.
Then I lost my job. I was working for Chrysler Financial at their Business Vehicle Financing office, making decent money for a 20yr old. After about a year and half there, we got word that the car market was crashing and Chrysler was being forced to close 12 offices around the country. Yeah, mine was definitely one that got the axe! So no job meant I was freakin out about school which eventually led to me not going to class.
Long story short, I’ve got a really good job right now, me and Ben are currently living with my father, Ben is in school himself, so there really is nothing holding me back this time around! So I am DETERMINED to finish! And I’ll work on my bachelor’s degree as it gets closer to that time! Goals are good!
So wish me luck tomorrow! I’m praying it all goes okay!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Then tonight I decided I might give it a try again. But the more I thought about what I'd name it or what I'd even want to talk about, it dawned on me that I had created yet ANOTHER blog for posting stories or random writings that I'd done over the years. For the life of me, I could not find this. So I googled "theysayitscrazy" and HOLY SHIT did I find myself on the internet ALOT. Long story short, I found the old blog that I posted random chapters and stories too, but can't remember the e-mail or login for this blog.
Here's the link. http://theysayitscrazy.blogspot.com/
The stories/chapters were written when I was 16/17, almost 10 years ago now. But that blog will never be updated again. I would have probably continued with it, had I remembered the login.
Oh well, it's a small world after all and it turns out I have 3 blogs out there...eeeekk!